I had a strange thing happen to me recently. I can’t say it has ever happened before. While I don’t claim to be the most photogenic person in the world, I saw a picture of me and was shocked. It did not match the way I feel! When I look in the mirror, it’s not what I see. I feel good, strong, healthy, free! This summer I have decided to stay off the scale because of the freedom God has given me in food and exercise. Yet, with this freedom, one thing has been seemingly lacking- weight loss. It hasn’t been a problem with me, until I saw this picture of me.
I started nit-picking myself. How my face looks swollen, and my arms look huge, and I’ve got a muffin top going on I looked at the picture and completely tore myself apart instead of seeing a beautiful creation by God.
My husband reminded me a few weeks ago that often times, confidence is what’s really sexy. Not just skimpy, sexy clothing, but an attitude of confidence. I guess since he told me that, I just bolstered my confidence! It deflated quickly though, when I realized the picture didn’t match the way I felt.
Instead of typing out a whole post today, I made a video to share what all went through my head. It’s raw and real and unedited.
If you relate to this, know I’m with you! We are in it together! You are not alone. I so desperately want to do this ‘weight loss’ thing in a way that honors God with my body. I refuse to go back to my old ways of dieting, restricting calories, and being so inward focused. Yet, I want to be healthy, strong, capable, and FREE! And I want to help you do the same! Thanks for being here today, friends!
This year is a double whammy on Father’s Day. It is also Greg’s birthday! I’ve been struggling with what to get him. He can be particular when he is looking at something specific. I know what he doesn’t want… a tie! He is an amazing gift giver, so that makes it even harder for me when it comes to getting him something! So here I sit, two days before his birthday and Father’s Day, being a last minute gift giver!
One thing I knew he would love is a massage. But… if you’re like me, you might not want some other woman rubbing on your hubby! I mean, Greg is super hunky so…. it’s just how I’ve always felt about it. We did get couple’s massages one year for Valentine’s Day and it was super awkward for me because we knew one of the massage therapists.
Since the beginning of time, there has been a struggle in ministry. Lucifer, the great and beautiful angel, the “Day Star” (Isaiah 14:12-14), full of wisdom and perfect in beauty (Ezekiel 28:11-19), had a power struggle with God. Some make an argument that Satan was a ‘worship leader’ in the heavens before his fall. Either way, the struggle has been here from the beginning.
There seems to be a trend in the ministry that I have seen repeated quite a bit in the past few years. Husbands leaving their wives for other relationships. The wife is a leading lady in ministry, the husband more behind the scenes in support. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not stupid. I know women leave the marriage relationship as well. It just makes me ask questions like “How?” and “Why?” without real answers because each situation is unique. I can’t imagine the pain these women are bearing in having to confess to the world that their marriages have fallen apart. It absolutely breaks my heart. It makes me want to weep.
Thanks for being here and joining me on this new name change! If you are here, you might be wondering why I would change the name of my blog, Facebook (please like my new page!), and Instagram? My following isn’t ginormous or anything, but I’m sure ‘the experts’ wouldn’t recommend too many name changes. Which, there have been many for me over the years.
Once upon a time there was a girl. Dealing with disappointment, comparison to other women, unmet expectations, feeling the need to keep the eyes of her husband (because let’s face it, he’s pretty cute and other women think so too!), this girl turned to Dr.Google for losing weight. She learned if she worked out and cut calories, she could lose some pounds.
And so she did. She worked out with one of the most popular fitness professionals via DVD. She used My Fitness Pal to track every bite of food that went into her mouth. She could eat less during the day to splurge on dessert that night and still stay within her calorie range. Guess what? She lost weight. She thought she had found her value and worth by being skinny again. While not pre-pregnancy weight, it was the least she had weighed since having kids and well, that felt good to her.
Summer is upon us. Well, at least here in Georgia it is! My children are daily asking if we can go swimming because it’s “SOOOOOO hot!!!!!” If you are anything like me, you’re not the mom who likes to play in the pool – let alone get in a bathing suit. No, this is not about telling you to get in the pool with your children. Mine are just as happy knowing I’m there to watch them jump, slide, do cannonballs, and splash me while I’m on the sidelines! But this summer, I’ve decided to wage war against guilt and body-shaming. I’m starting first by kissing my scale goodbye.Read More
I had the joy and privilege of being in one of my best friend’s wedding this past weekend. It was a joyous occasion because of the pursuit of a love that would be honoring to God. It’s so heart warming to see your best friend choose to love a godly man. To see them unite together in a covenant of love. It gives me all the feels.Read More
I don’t know about you, but I don’t have a lot of time for a workout each day. I’m a busy homeschool mom, and I’m sure you are busy too! Twenty minutes seems to be my max, unless I want to get up earlier than I already do….. which I don’t. I need something quick and easy! So that is exactly what I have been doing!Read More
As a homeschool mom, I spend hours and hours planning for school. I love the process of organizing our homeschool– from the curriculum and books to the space we will occupy. Despite all my best efforts, sometimes the plan doesn’t come to fruition the way you want it to. Sometimes your homeschool doesn’t go as planned. At all.Read More