Surrender {my word for 2018}

S U R R E N D E R

transitive verb
1a : to yield to the power, control, or possession of another upon compulsion or demand
b : to give up completely or agree to forgo especially in favor of another
2a : to give (oneself) up into the power of another especially as a prisoner
b : to give (oneself) over to something (such as an influence)
intransitive verb
: to give oneself up into the power of another : yield
Thank you, Webster, for the definition of surrender. 😉 As 2017 ended and 2018 began, I started working on my Powersheets. I was able to do as this picture says:
 
While I am a little behind in sharing my word for 2018, I am not behind in how long I’ve known this was my focus. Surrender was spoken over me by a handful of close friends, one being my hairdresser of all people! She’s a great friend of mine, and let’s be honest ladies- getting our hair done is more than self-care; it’s often a therapy session. She spoke the word surrender over me back in December and it resonated so deeply within my soul that I knew that was my word for the year. When she spoke this over me, I even said, “Darn you. Why’d you have to say that?!?!?!” I knew she was right, but let’s face it, it’s not a word I wanted to claim as my own.

surrender.

A word none of us like to hear, let alone use about ourselves. I do believe Webster defined it well, didn’t he? To yield, to give up completely, to give oneself up. Those three beginnings alone make me cringe. However, I am finding great freedom in surrender. I have been in a season of giving up what I want for the better, dare I even say the best, for those around me. This includes a major change in our homeschool curriculum. There are days I have been in tears over knowing I need to give up what I thought would work for something else. Something that is everything I haven’t wanted because of my own personal preference.

surrender in our homeschool

If you follow me on social media, you may know that we have been using Sonlight for the past few years. While I have most certainly enjoyed it, I am struggling to keep up. I have been a little down in the dumps for the past few weeks. I’ll have a good week or two, and then I go back to just struggling to keep the house clean, getting dishes done, having dinner ready, and hopefully, staying on top of laundry, let alone schooling and disciplining my children. If I’m honest, which I always try to be, this has been me on and off for probably the past year. I have days where I get up and when Greg leaves for work I really just want to climb back in bed. I don’t, but my ability to function on a daily basis has not been optimal.
For this reason, we have made the decision to switch to Abeka. Not just Abeka, but their video program. I will confess that I have never wanted to use Abeka video. I did not desire school-at-home for my homeschool. In my own perspective, that is how I viewed Abeka video. However, I have seen the freedom in being able to say, “I need help. I can’t do it all on my own right now. I am willing to surrender what I want for what is best for my children.”
Was that easy? Heck no. Not at all. But I am willing to lay my pride down and say that what worked for us for a season is no longer working for us. In return, the Lord has given me a renewed excitement for our homeschool! At this time we will use the videos for our older three. children and I will teach our youngest two.

surrender in my weight loss efforts

surrender the scale

My next place of surrender is my health. Or should I say, my weight? I am once again re-focusing on health and not weight loss. I’m surrendering the scale, again, and tape measure for the whole year. I am giving up using them as measures of my worth. As a Revelation Wellness® instructor, I know better than that and yet I still fall into the trap of defining my worth based on these simple measurements. Instead my goals are strength, endurance, and recovery. I have once again already discovered the freedom of letting go of my weight in exchange for me health. This is something that will most certainly be a work in progress this year. I am giving up my attachments to “results” and looking more at the work being done in my heart in the process of surrender.

surrender of my will

Lastly, is the all encompassing surrender of my will. There are some very specific circumstances to this one, but I am not free to share at this time. Hopefully soon, I will be able to share. This one has possibly been the most difficult for me. Shocker, right?? Can we not all agree that the surrender of OUR will is a serious struggle? It has been a time of patience, diligent prayer, and letting God do the work. I have had to say “God, this is what I want. But my desire is for Your will more than my own, even if it means not getting what I want.”

Let me tell you friend. That’s a hard prayer to pray. Once again, the Lord has proven faithful and good and I can see Him moving in our lives. It gives me faith to continue to surrender my will to His good and perfect will. In His time; which is normally not on MY time! His rarely early, never late, and always on time. I have truly been able to look over the past few months and see how HIS timing has been perfect.

verse of the year

For 2018 I have chosen Deuteronomy 5:32-33:

You shall be careful therefore to do as the Lord your God has commanded you. You shall not turn aside to the right hand or to the left. You shall walk in all the way that the Lord your God has commanded you, that you may live, and that it may go well with you, and that you will live long in the land that you shall possess.

I have been reading through the Bible chronologically and when I came to this verse, again, it just went deep into my heart. While Moses is saying this to the Israelites, doesn’t it apply to us as well? Are we not to be careful to do all the Lord has commanded us to do? We need to stay in our own lane, run our own race, be obedient to what the Lord has called us as individuals to. What He has called me to is specific to me. I want the blessings of the Lord, but that requires my obedience. Whether the task He sets before me is big or small, I want to be found faithful and obedient.

So, how about you? Have you chosen a word for 2018? How has the impacted your life so far this year? I’d love to hear what the Lord has spoken to you for this upcoming year. I don’t know about you friend, but I am excited to see all that the Lord is going to do in 2018! I’m putting on my seatbelt and holding on tight!

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